Time-the lack of it...

There is very little time to do things that you really want to do when theres so many things that you" have"to do.How do you manage time ? Things that you have to do ( responsiblities) usually takes most of your time-work,family and social responsiblities and leaves u with very little time for things that you realy want to do-read,exercise,write,travel,play games-soccer,golf etc.

Is it bad time management if you seem to always have no time ? Or is it a result of modern day living-everything is so fast so demanding ? The more efficient you become the more you are required to do. ven after carrying out all your responsiblities and say you want to read a book,theres so many topics and genres that interest me that i dont know where to start ! That i end up not reading and doing something else like - writing well not that its bad,but i feel that so many2 things that i want to do but its not done.

Tommorrow is fully pack with work from morning untill night and the balance of today is so very precious,but ive still got some responsiblities to carry out (visit my Mom in law ). And of couse its Syaaban and therefore i should spend more time at the surau for solat jemaah. Infact because of all these worldly responsibilities and my own lack of will i have not been going tothe Surau for berjemaah regularly.

i see my mom and dad at least once a week-but when im there i feel sad for them because they wish that their children will spend more time with them.but their children have all grown up and have their own family and life and this cycle is happening to me too...

My own children are growing up fast too,i have five and three have started having their own life too-meaning away from home. it seems only yesterday that they were my little babies. i guess my parents feel the same way,although im going to be 50 soon and they are in their eighties.To my parents all their children are still their babies and they expect us to be around as much as possible.

time...theres just not enough

letih ooi...

Its really "sickening" when people,especially when its your so called "friends" make "judgements" about you.And worse still without knowing the whole story,or getting views only from one side and making judgements based on a "perception that is created" by another person.





Perception is precisely that,just a perception. Its not the real thing,its an image that is created to convey a certain message. There are times that the perception is real but more often than not ,its not. I have this problem that in general I'm perceived to be "snobbish/egoistic". Some say its the " face",some say its my ways-but I really dont care. Sometimes i use it to my advantage,anyway ,God willing,most people are quite comfortable with me after knowing me.

Herein lies part of the problem,there are people who "think" they are close to me,who do not like the idea that when I'm perceive to be close to a newer person in the circle. If the other new person is of the opposite sex,the problem is further compounded.





That's OK,but when they start creating all sorts of lies just to make me look bad that is totally unfair and uncalled for,what is worse is people whom i care, tend to believe this lies!! I guess telling bad things about people is more enjoyable than telling about good things,kot ? Im trying my best to ignore this group of people and carry out my task of running my business. Most of the time its manageable but sometimes...geram sangat !!!

REFORMASI 2-BY DS NAJIB TUN RAZAK...

Like most Malaysians, I would like to give Premier Najib Tun Razak a chance with his reform movement. However i have some concerns when i read in the newspapers about the demands of MCA ( we want same number of Ministers,then they demanded a Chinese DPM and Deputy Chairman for BN ) and MIC ( we "might" withdraw from the cabinet because we are not represented ( with a senior minister post )in the Cabinet,despite being the third largest member of the coalition). It seems that despite the message that our PM is trying spread ( 1Malaysia concept ) the main components of the ruling coalition is still very much thick with racial sentiments. Somehow when Malays talk about their rights,ther are labelled racist,but MCA,MIC says a lot of things that are hurtful to the Malays at large. This is of course is followed by an official denial ( as in the case of MIC) and silence on the part of the MCA. This old tactic of "Baling Batu Sorok Tangan " is and old political ploy that has been practised by BN and its partners ( including UMNO ). Old habits are hard to get rid of.
So will the premier's reform programme succeed ? At this rate,unlikely. But its still early days and for the sake of the country I do hope he succeeds. There are issues he needs to tackle immediately if his reform is too succeed.

1.BN must be and must be seen to be truly multi racial and yet with the acceptance that it will be lead by UMNO ( a clean and trustworthy UMNO ).The current political reality and scenario ( 60++% of the county is still Malay/Muslim dominated ) still demands that this country be lead by a Malay and a Malay lead coalition.

2.UMNO must really be reformed-no corruption and the battle cry must be truly..."Demi Bangsa,Ugama and Negara" and not "what is it in for me",as that is the current battle cry and culture of patronage. PAS and DAP have very clear guiding (though sometimes conflicting) principles-but their members joint the party because they strongly feel that their party's solution is the way forward for the society and the Nation as oppose to most who joint UMNO,MCA and .MIC. PAS and DAP leaders are seen to be clean,honest and trustworthy ( Nizar,Lim Guan Eng,Lim Kit Siang)

3.BN/UMNO/PM must take cognizance that Dato Seri Anwar Ibrahim is still a factor. For a start, you should know by now that the more you criticise DSAI the more popular he becomes. You have no choice but to engage him. He is and will always be a factor in Malaysian politics. Ignore this fact and i would say your chances for reform and a victory in PRU13 is zero. The country will be more diversified as the coalition that wins PRU13 whether PR or BN will not be strong enough to form a strong and stable government.

4.Please my dear PM, be your own man,do not fall into the trap that has been set by the former PM Tun Mahathir. Although he was and still is a brilliant leader,there are aspects of his leadership that you should nor emulate ( perception of being anti Islam, perception of controlling the courts and not really listening to the grassroots.)

5.You must also accept the fact that the majority of Malays are divided along political belief/lines and this reconciliation is the most single important agenda facing u,unite the Malays and most of the country's problem will be solved. How ? In my next write up insyaAllah...
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Jr Arsenal Fan

Imraan,will remember this for a long,long time. Remembering the time we jalan2 in London.

being a Grand Dad...

There is an additional reason to look fwd to when i come home...Ayra. I'm a grand dad ! Yep, its truly amazing, feels like a dream within a dream. living multiple phases of my life at one go...WOH,I'm excited yet there is this worry, whether i can live to the expectation. you know the first time you become an uncle,rasa macam ada certain stature and responsibility,then you re a husband,then a father and now a grandad ! I think like grand ma's ,grand dads should retire and not worry about work and business etc. we should just spend more time with the cucu and more time doing what toks and opahs do,which is what huh...?

Well,actually im not 50 yet n i dont really feel 'old n retired', in fact i like to be a cool grandad,I'm still playing futsal ( although every time after that i feel like dying ! ), i still drive 180km/hr ( that's the max of the speedometer) since if i drive any slower i will certaintly die of boredom ! Speeding does not equate recklessness,to those who equate speed to danger.

This part about driving, i will write later,as tips of how to drive safetly ( tapi laju...he2).Anyways...

Well this morning she( ayra) will be leaving for Aunties Azmah's hse as a trial run,see if i was retired then she could stay with me.This is in anticipation that her Mom will be going to work next week...

being a dad...part one...

Salams,its truly incredible and amazing that my children have all grown up,everyday I thank Allah swt for all that He has bestowed upon me. i am truly blessed. It seems only yesterday that they were all babies,fragile and very dependent...how time flies,it just shows that you have to cherish every moment in your life and not be too concerned about the future,live life to the fullest. Yes,sure, you have to make plans for the future,but not to the extent that you are so bogged down with it that you forget the present. sometimes i have been hard on my children,because i worry about their future,sometimes too hard. i hope that one day they will understand that its not easy being a responsible father. I married young,had children early and at the same time i was still doing my own growing up. even now I'm still learning and growing up ( not height wise though...he2 ). I had a difficult time as a teenager,growing up in Kuala Lumpur, yeap i guess i had this complex about not being/belonging to any one group ( the rich kids,the really ganas kids of Keramat or Kampung Baru ) i wasn't a brilliant student ( the only one who did not go to SBP among the siblings ) but somehow i survive, i made do with what i had and learn to adapt. at one stage in my adolescent life-my mom and dad didn't even know i was around ! They had eight kids and while i was growing up the family had its fair share of problems. difficult marriage(s),sick brother,financial problems, I was just number 6-crazy about soccer,did not create problems,just was around. When i went to play soccer in Pahang and did not comeback for a couple of days no one noticed-bcoz when i come back,no one ask where i went !! That's why I'm kind of obsessed to know where my kids are all the time.So there...thats why.
I'm trying to explain/understand some of my own actions as a dad,ok...Yana,Emil and Na...and Iyas and Im if you happen to read this.Anyways reading your blog(s) i realised that you guys are so worried that your writing is not up to the mark,don't worry,just write how you feel and you will improve,let your honesty and creativity flow...insyaAllah it will be ok. But believe me,so far i think you guys are very creative,i love reading your blogs...it helps me feel connected. The modern way of life is so demanding on time that we have to make the extra effort to keep in touch,to tell and remind each other that whatever happens,insyaAllah we have each other and that our little family is very big at heart and that we have each other always.
I have got some work to do so ive got to leave this space,dont know when ill continue to write but i will read your blogs whenever i can...ta...

spaced...

...why is it that i write my tazkirah in emails and not in my blog ?... Dont really have a good reason,never really thought about it. Well what happen the last time was,i was going through my emails and suddenly had this urge...really needed to write to release this pent up feeling that i had. So it was something that was done rather instantenously.

sometimes when we plan to write,having these ideas and thoughts running in your head but then so many other things needs to be taken care of that you end up not writing...

like now so...