money n power the root of it all...

Betrayed,thats how i felt today. Never thought that a close friend would actually stab you in the back,its crazy enough to becareful with your competitors but when the competitor is a friend you dont expect that.

Emails,phone calls,smss are not returned-all i want is clarification,but no she has chosen the silent mode ! Its important in life that you dont have bad thoughts about people,because negative thots creates more negative thots and the consquences is a lot of "bad feelings kind of environment".Tapi takpalah no need to dwell in all this negativity, as i said to this "friend" of mine ( thru sms ) the world is a cycle,what goes around comes around-do good and good things will happen,do bad things and just wait...

But i forgive her, else im just as bad...

Whats the source of this betrayal ? Well,recently when i meet "people"/fellow businessmen-they have been saying things like..ya la you sibok banyak kerja...you seem to be getting all the jobs...etc...the kind of things which is very irritating to hear because you want jobs youve got to work hard,deliver and hope n pray that the almighty continues your rezk

They think "knowing who" is enough even if they dont know how ! There are people who would be supportive of you only if youre lesser than them then if youre better of thats when trouble starts. They dont bother me, but when the backbiting starts...

The cause,its all about money...

AArgh...

does scribling and jotting ideas on a piece of paper or actually listing things that you want to do/need to do assist you in multi tasking ? Mind Mapping ? whats the best way to "organize" your thoughts?

I think it depends on the complexities of the task,simple straight forward problems can be organised linearly whereas the ones that link to one another needs the more than one dimension diagrams..? there are times however the simple one are connected to the more complex ones and v.versa,well cant show it diagramatically here...see because of the medium

talking on the handphone,writing/typing ? on the note book and reading a report thats due in one hour-whats the solution on this. Is Multi tasking doing many things at one time or doing many things at different times but in a limited time frame say within 2hours-that include lunch...

trying to figure out what i just wrote...

Re-focus

Ive been sick for the past few days-really sick-was throwing up and couldnt eat anything. The situation was so bad that i thought that my end was near ! Its during these kind of times that you wish you had live life a bit differently-which had spend more time praying,more time with your loved ones etc...no one im sure on their deathbed would say i wish i had spend more time at work...

So when i went to the office today,after not going for the past four days ! i found that half my staff are going for interviews for government jobs,as we are all aware the government has now better perks than the private sector,especially for entry level and those who are just starting out in their careers. Sometime last year i wanted to quit the business because at that moment i had some savings and even if i didnt get any new jobs, i would be able to survive a couple of years,but then against my better judgement,i decided to continue as i felt responsible towards my staff-i have ten of them-who r married,have kids,car/housing loans etc. But they wouldnt blink an eye in leaving me for greener pastures...but you cant really blame them as a person would do whats best for them.

Therefore i have to refocus too,because to start with a fresh bunch is too taxing,it will at least a year for they have the minimal ability to work within a consultancy environment and that too if they have the right attitude...

Time and how to manage it.

Its been a long,long time since ive written,works it seems is endless,it makes you crazy but you have to do it to survive or else how do you feed the family. I wish there could be more time but you have to make time they say...All i can say is that i dont wish to be working like this for too long,i really wold love to spend more time with the family,more time reading and reflecting,but its not easy. Im quite organised actually-its just that ive got to learn to let go n delegate more, The nature of my business however does not allow me to do that,clients still wants to see me more than my senior staff. Ive got to figurethis out...