still around...

...there was a monitor for my heart,for my breathing,blood pressure-these lines were going up and down and i notice that when i hold my breath the line would remain straight ( the one that monitors my breathing ) and the other lines would go crazy ! I was bored and i hate hospitals, especially in the CCU,theres no television,i cant read books ( my hands have these tubes which is connected to my finger tips etc ), there dont allow me to leave the bed-i was going crazy ! So i held my breath as long as i could and the monitors when crazy-nurses come running into the cubicle and was a lil confused with what happened, i of course pretended to sleep. That was the excitement for the night for me...

The next day i told the cardiologist that if they dont take me out of this place i will really go crazy and they probably wld have to put me in a psychiatric ward ! Ihad to go through a couple more test and was discharged later in the day. Ive been going through various test including a stress test recently and the physician said that im fine but have to take some medication for precaution. He cant really say what was the cause of the fainting spells ( have not since then ) and said that the probable cause is stress ( that because of the tired body during certain time of the day blood doesnt reach my brains...

Well one thing for sure i need to exercise more ( which ive not done ).work less ( which is impossible) and relax more( m trying ). Actually,inyaallah as a Muslim-one should not be stressed as everything comes from Allah swt-but i guess my level of keimanan accepts that but its not translated into the physical body/being,meaning ive still got a long way to go be the "calm" person that i should...

Alhamdoolillah, in general,im feeling better,but i also know that some things have change and somehow those fainting spells have had an effect on me. Doesnt really matter, life is too short to dwell on the past, the best approach is to look forward towards the next day and...